KuAi lUi uNlEaShEd

The sorrows of working for the others is that you’re unable to control whatsoever outcome to it. They control every aspect of your job function and even out of the job function. ‘Oh no, you can’t go pee now. You need to attend to this matter first, it is urgent’, says the others. Then you realise, oh it’s just filing a sheet of document. It’s funny how when you’re being employed, the employers often misused the employees. Sadly, most people dun have the $$$$ or know that many people well enough to be self-employed. Nor do they own a blog that bellows cash in.

We, the employees never get appreciated. the others often plan something ahead, wait while you are unaware and pop it on you like an atom bomb. Ouch.. that hurts, but it’s too late u doofus! You’re duped and stuck.

Well, it’s 0206hrs now and i’ve clocked an extra 6 minutes for today’s shift but nobody cares sh*t. Even when you clock 6 hours extra, the others will still treat you like cheap dirt and the outcome would be ‘oh, how come you take so long to complete that task’. (rolls eye) That are always right and when they decide something, it is superior and nobody can go against it. the others smiles in glee ‘i am the king of the world!’ (right! rolls eye) Oh, and that’s another 3minutes extra for this paragraph. I should just go back to my room, pop that actifed and prepare for the battlefield tomorrow.

**The above entry is totally spontaneous and of self annoyance with some people.

***I am so gonna finish those naruto episodes.

I was browsing through other people’s friendster, being the kay-poh-chi as usual. (well, it’s my first day back at work after my monthly 4 days break and i can’ help it. i need something to keep me awake!) So, there as i was saying, i was browsing and i noticed… i realised….. PEOPLE COME TO GENTING.

PEOPLE as in my friends! Not strange people, but friends! Not acquaintance hor, FRIENDS i tell you… and i’m just like 5 minutes walk away from them and nobody bothers calling me up. Need i remind you people that i treat those who call and bother meeting me? Need i remind you people i have 1k food signing every month that i gorge myself silly with? Hello, Genting food damn expensive la, once in a while please fully utilise having someone working here with extra food signing to spare.

Ok, i can’t blame them. Most of them came here to have their little ‘honeymoon’ or with friends i really dunno. I can’t go around buying food for a whole bunch of strangers right? I get it. I also get it that i stop turning up for gatherings, even CNY! Some people miss me winning their money at our yearly gambling sessions. Nothing to worry bout, i’ll be back next year and watch your wallets!

The time i get off from work is very different from normal people. Normal people get saturdays and sundays off. I work everyday until a particular time of the month, i will be home for like 5days. Mostly weekdays, i can choose weekends but i just dun bother because nobody is in MELAKA anyways. =(( triple sad.

List of restaurants i am allowed to treat: -

Resort Hotel: Resorts Cafe, Kampung Restaurant

Genting Hotel: Coffee Terrace, Bakery, Pizza Factory, Good Friend Restaurant, Good Friend Express, Lau Di Fang, New Orleans(western food)

First World Hotel: Hou Mei, Lobby Cafe, Hainan, Torcello (Italian).

**If i miss any out, my deepest apologies. but look at all the places you can eat for free just by giving me a call? (ok, now i sound desperate.) Fine, dun come. I can very much help myself to my 1k food allowance. If not, i can just buy lots of mineral water and bathe with mineral water!

ps: would love to post pictures of my training but not getting any yet! arrggghhh.. would love to blog bout it too but no pictures = not fun blogging.

pps: went for ‘keepers of the flame’ organized by d’jungle people. (they organized spirit of melaka too!) they are damn cool! but talk bout them next time when i get those pictures!

ciao and cheers!

Sometimes, life is not just all about yourself. It revolves around other people, beautiful things and everything au naturel. (completely digressing myself, can someone pls teach me how to not be spaced hugely when i press enter on the keyboard?)

For one, i simply love amusement parks. It’s the inner child thing, i think or perhaps when i was young the lack of visitations to amusement parks. I get so excited over those cheapo seedy roadside amusement parks, those where they just appear for a few weeks and have really boring rides like ferris wheel and that’s pretty much it. I’m sure the modern ones are much cooler. Like the one i saw beside 1utama? Huge with some cool rides that seems to sway/flip/swing you up into the air? Didn’t get to try it out though. The thing about amusement park that attracts me when i was a little girl was the cool lights, the crowd, the candy floss and maybe the clown and the balloons!! Ohh how i love balloons.. When i was young, there was no such thing as animals shaped out of balloons. No poodles, no flowers, no whatsoever cool balloons. Only the smiley face kind and i simply adore those. Pretty easy to please aren’t i?
Some people would look and me and *rolls eye. What? amusement park? Are u like 3years old or what? Oh, pardon me but most rides require a certain height to be on it and i dun think 3 years old are allowed on any. Isn’t it just so fun and relaxing to be on the pirate ship and sway along with the wind and scream your lungs out after days and days of tedious, gruesome tiring work? It’s a form of relaxation, enjoying life. (no, clubbing and drinking and followed by puking is not relaxing. it’s self torture + u inhale too much 2nd hand smoke and might die from lung cancer. trust me, the lung gets ugly!) I keep telling myself, Disneyland Orlando, Florida I WILL COME TO YOU ONE DAY! Oh, and i can’t wait to see the Hogwarts Castle they’re constructing over there now. It’s so damn friggin cool, of course this sort of coolness only applies to Harry Potter freaks like me but trust me, it’ll be all worth while.

It’s 0429hrs and as usual i’m on my routine graveyard shift which bores the hell out of me. I’ve watched like 3 episodes of Ghost Whisperer Season 2 and it’s been freaking me out. So, am here to relax take my mind of things and do what i love best. B.L.O.G. I dun blog a lot nowadays due to lack of permanent internet connection and my life is kinda boring but i still have a hell loads of crap i can crack. Just provide a keyboard and some sweet tunes and i just tap tap tap away endlessly. Though entries are getting boring without pictures. It’s difficult to upload stuff here using company’s server. Web marshal’s always bloody blocking me.

I love glorious beaches covered with white fine CLEAN sand with crystal clear gorgeous blue water splashing against my feet when i stand by the beach. I miss redang. I know it’s overated but beaches just aint gorgeous when the water’s black/green/sugarcane colour. It’s only lovely when it’s clear and blue. (even after some a**hole pukes in it) Well, the puke floats away and everything is crystal clear again. Bali was nice but the beaches were meant for surfing and the water’s not so gorgeous. Redang is cheap, budget and lovely. Great place for relaxing and you don’t have to spent a dime on food! It’s all in the 300++ package. Transport, accomodation, food, snorkelling and the lovely sea breeze. Have i ever mentioned? I saw my constellation Scorpius (latin for scorpion) when i was star gazing in redang?

Gorgeous right? I love to star gaze except that where we stay it’s so polluted we no longer see the thousand of stars blinking at us from the clear night sky. That is why i love being on an island far away from civilization. The sky is a sight to behold at night with the stars shining down on you. Truly something to share with a loved one.

Note: This entry is wrote totally on an impulse. Everything just came pouring out once i started. >.<

Enjoy and good nite.

I can’t believe it’s been 9 months since i started working. It seems like yesterday i was lugging my 5 luggages uphill with mum and dad.
In the midst of working, i’ve lost 3 quarter of my friends.
1. I no longer turn up for gatherings on special holidays due to my shift job and my lewdness towards the excess cash during PH.
2. I no longer receive invitations to any gatherings, because after 5 invitations and rejections anyone would get fedup and give up.
3. I no longer contact anybody.
4. On my off days, i go home and sleep for 4/5/6 days and do nothing else.
Wow, my life is so cool and wonderful.. *sniggers*

Thankfully, my puny still loves me despite my lack of activities and boring lifestyle.
The only place i enjoy going to now is my room. So i can sleep on my bed, wrapped in my blanket and sneak peeks at cheesy romance novels i sneak from my roomie’s stash.

Work has been tiresome and awful… Sometimes i wonder what am i doing here?
I barely get enough sleeo most of the time. I work long hours and the pay is still horribly meager.
Maybe i should leave?
Sigh….. Now that i am in the place they all call “paradise” compared to my original workplace i should start planning my future.
Should i join a circus and manage the clown troops?
Should i start an excavation troop to hunt down big foot?

I’m not making any sense…
Catching My Fair Lady on 20th May 07 courtesy of Rita dearest.
Might review bout the show if i enjoy it. My first musical show!
I’m so excited bout it!
Cheers!

Happy Chinese New Year to all my dear friends and family whom i will not be seeing this CNY around. I hope i’ve not been forgotten yet. =p I’m sorry i choose work over CNY. It’s very selfish of me but i’ve missed everyone! It’s only been the 2nd day and i’m already missing the activities with my family and friends during CNY. but.. since i’ve already gone home and had pre-CNY celebration curtesy of my family here are messages for my wonderful friends.

To Vernie, Gloria, Yin, Sze Woon, Kat, Li Ling, Sally i miss you girls and guess i’ll not be around for our annual CNY reunion and gambling sessions. I’ll be back next year!

To Rita, how bout letting them have a break this year? =p We’ll win their $$$$ again next year round. I promise!! Whoever i miss out in my list, i love you all and may your year be prosperous and PIGS ROCK! (despite all the ‘fan tai shui’ saying, we still rock ok?)

Love, hugs & kisses

Chin Yee

ps: to AGP, i love u (as per requested by u =p)

Bali was a great and fun place to be if you minus the terrorizing heat which turned me into a dark-skinned unrecognizable self.
I had fun shopping, strolling along the beaches and going to the temples (despite being harassed continuously by creepy roadside vendors).
I’ve learn something through the journey though, if something wasn’t meant to be yours. Let it go. Exactly what i keep telling myself the whole day.
It’s a totally irrelevant topic but i still have to voice it out.
Let it go, Sophie (u know who u r, and u know what i mean).
I totally agree with you. Let it go.
This time, i’m not going to post pictures here. View it on my friendster account.
Have a good day!

ps: this is a totally irrelevant post but what the heck, mebbe i’ll blog something lovely tomorrow. for a change. Happy Belated-V Day!

pps: if u notice the picture on the left. we’re standing in front of bali’s mother of temples.
no i haven’t gotten the tan yet during that picture.

pps: i can’t help it… pictures!

Descriptions of pictures from top to bottom:
1. Me & Eng @ Jazz Club, Ubud (7th Feb)
2. Me & Eng @ Tanah Lot (the temple by the sea or on the sea when the tide rises, 9th Feb)
3. Me at Tanah Lot with the sea/sky as the background.
4. Group picture in front of Pura Besakih (pura=temple 8th Feb)
5. Me & Eng at the Graha Ubud Resort (8th Feb)
6. Can u spot the wooden crafts? =p

pps: i posted an entry yesterday but it hasnt been published yet. so i’m leaving a message here.

ppps: To AGP, I love u.

For the first time since i’ve been here, i finally miss home.

- The cozy and warm (mind u, very warm indeed in the afternoon) bed i laze around since i was a kid.

- The kitchen where i sit and talk to mum while she’s cooking.

- My ’study’ table which manages to look like a typhoon just went pass it all the time.

- My tiny room where i share with my sisters and mess up most the time i’m around.

- My pc which is the main cause i stay up late at night and do all the nonsense i do.

I can’t believe the next time i’m going back i won’t be sleeping in the same house i’ve been since i was born.

I wanna cry…… In fact i am fighting back my tears which are trying to force themselves out.

I’m not as tough as i thought i was. I wanna cry everytime i feel alone here but i always manage not to.

A friend once told me i’m escaping from the world when i came here.

I prefer to think that i’m getting adapted to a new world.

Is it crazy if i secretly loathe the happy look on ppl’s face? A ‘Latoo McBunny’ friend of mine told me i’m getting very paranoid.

I can relate anything to everything and make it seemed like some mafia conspiracy or at least my imaginary conspiracy.

I need to get a life soon….

ps: I’ll be home for Christmas! I’m celebrating Christmas with Justin and how pathetic is that?

…but but i’ll be home that weekend ‘cept for the eve which i will be in KL with Justin. erhem…

pps: in case u r wondering, Justin is the HK singer u slimy wart.

ppps: the above post has been written in a very emotional mode. as many entries before has been.

i think i’m going through some sort of mid-life crisis ‘cept mebbe mine should be called adult-hood crisis. =p

How weird and what a coincidence it is when i try to post a photo and it keeps getting rejected even after i changed the file extension. The weirdness in it is that of the person in the photo i seriously am beginning to despise. Funny how most the pictures i like usually comes with the same person.
I should get a life. => seriously….
Btw, pls tell me boots aren’t the hottest fashion item now. I’m dying to get myself a pair or 2.

p/s: forgive me bcose i find myself sounding very bitchy. i am usually like that.

What happens when all hell breaks lose?
Presumably Lucifer will send all his devoted underworld followers and wreck the
hell out of earth. What if one day Lucifer decides to turn against himself and
be good for once?
It
will never happen. So, it’s the same for me. When I find out about something I know
will happen but dread about it – ALL HELL BREAKS LOSE.

Don’t
expect me to pretend to be nice and fake like the devil when he’s trying to con
someone into worshipping him and following his every antics. I dun understand
how some people can be so tremendously pretentious when it comes to the simple
truth. Why can’t people just be more straight-forward? Things could be much less
complicated this way. Wouldn’t earth be more peaceful if Lucifer just wasn’t so
evasive? No offense to Lucifer of course, I particularly find him an
interesting character much to the stories or shall I say the tales that made him
so infamous today.

Now,
the fixation about people is that they obsess too much about things that are so
totally irrelevant that it probably wouldn’t even harm a fly or may be a scrap
of algae by the drain. When it comes to obsession, I believe I’m an obsessive
person. I believe that I am totally OCD. What makes a person obsessed? It’s
because that person is too fixated on a matter that doesn’t matter at all and
it makes that person possessed in something he/ she believes in.

A friend®
was defending another friend £ today saying that whatever £ does is to protect
our friendship. If lying is a way of protecting a so-called friendship then I don’t
think this so-called friendship exists. It’s a fictional thing where £ is in
her own world of belief and pretense. I do not belong in the world. Therefore,
stop saying things that make yourself sound extremely and ridiculously silly. I
do not tolerate absurdity and I cannot endure people who look upon me as if I’m
a fool. Stop telling me that everything £ does is only out of careful consideration
and therefore are sensible actions. I’m fed up with all the lies and ridiculous cover ups. Thanks but no thanks so beat it. Just chill, let it go and be yourself. Ok?

Lucifer
doesn’t have a true friend and neither does he need one. Did you know Lucifer was
once an archangel in heaven? He is known as the fallen angel who rebelled against
God and was sent to earth thus causing him who he is today.

I
think it is enough of squabble for the day, coming from me.
Haven’t
had such a long entry for ages, I guess most of you would find it dreadfully
confusing and boring. I’m sorry for the endless rambling, just can’t help
myself. Maybe it’s the weather up there freezing up my brain cells and it melts
too soon when I’m back here.
Kidding! Well, that’s all for the night.

Good night & sweet dreams!

Glossary:

OCD – Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

OCD is a type of anxiety
that happens when there is a problem with the way the brain deals with normal
worrying and doubts.

p/s: pls leave your name the next time u send an sms to me. i lost my hp so i might not know who you are. thank you!

p/p/s: congrats, so i heard. simply can’t find any 2 more deserving person. so, my heartiest congratulations to you-know-who-you-2-are. no sarcasm intended.

First and foremost, my heartiest congratulations to my friend Khuey Chen whether you’ll come upon this or not. It’s so happy to see a couple get together and get hitched. I haven’t seen that many but i’m sure when you make a decision that crucial which is going to last you your whole entire life; you must be meant for each other and have a desire for each other deeply. I feel so happy for them! Thus, Pictures!!!! i did promise pictures and i’ve already posted a few on my frienster account. So, i’ll add a few more i left out.

now tell me her long long train and sexy back is not nice and i’ll make sure you get 10 slaps from me the least. damn gorgeous rite? this is the dress she wore in the morning! we love her train and sexy alluring back. nEXT!

morning session at the temple after prayers. can u spot me?

do u think this is the ‘in’ colour for this year? look how many ppl turn up in almost similar colours!
from left to right: jenny, loo, me and su bing
all girls from convent! reunion!!

IJC reunion! er…. notice the odd one out?

the chi muis love ice cream!
from left: sy, jenny, loo, rita & moi

do we look like we’re doing a ice cream advert. erhem..without the kalefeh trying to fight for the limelight at the back of course.
i seriously dun recall having this picture taken. must’ve already went into my own world..haha…

The rest of the photos simply declared themselves as drunk and unsuitable for public viewing.
so for those of you whom i kindly shared them with pls keep em p&c. Well, mebbe i’ll post like 2 more very very small ones so you can’t see my too far away look.

from top to bottom:

1.rita & moi hugging for yet another photo session (we wobbled so much till we were forced to lean against the car so we could be still for the pic)
2.hugging the bride for yet another drunken photo. i noticed the bride still looks damn sober!
Damn! so much so for wanting to make the happy couple drunk.
Clockwise from left: kalefeh who ran into the shot while picture was being taken(guy in white       shirt), the groom benny showing double peace sign, rita, KC de bride, me & loo (at the bottom). I also notice russell at the far left back of the picture.

I sincerely apologize if i did anything ridiculous that night. Well, all i can say is HAPPY MAH!!!
Anyway, i wish the couple many happy years to come & please i expect a baby piggy next year!!

Also, Ms. Alesia aka Mrs. Sim, congratulations on the baby girl! Can’t wait for her arrival next year!
Can’t wait to dress her up in all the cutesie pinky clothes! Congratulations on the engagement & marriage! Promise, you’ll get an entry on my blog devoted to your wedding next year! I’ll try not to get drunk. Haha…..

Hope you’ve enjoyed the entry! Love, hugs & kisses.
Am going back up hill tomorrow to work. Tonight marks the end of my holiday.
Take care ppl & till i blog again!
Ciao!

ps: i dun understand why the font alignments keep getting screwed up everytime i post a lot of pictures in different sized. i do not want to rectify the problem as it’s too much bother. so pls forgive me!