It’s just emotion taking me over
For the first time since i’ve been here, i finally miss home. - The cozy and warm (mind u, very warm indeed in the afternoon) bed i laze around since i was a kid. - The kitchen where i sit and talk to mum while she’s cooking. - My ’study’ table which manages to look like a typhoon just went pass it all the time. - My tiny room where i share with my sisters and mess up most the time i’m around. - My pc which is the main cause i stay up late at night and do all the nonsense i do. I can’t believe the next time i’m going back i won’t be sleeping in the same house i’ve been since i was born. I wanna cry…… In fact i am fighting back my tears which are trying to force themselves out. I’m not as tough as i thought i was. I wanna cry everytime i feel alone here but i always manage not to. A friend once told me i’m escaping from the world when i came here. I prefer to think that i’m getting adapted to a new world. Is it crazy if i secretly loathe the happy look on ppl’s face? A ‘Latoo McBunny’ friend of mine told me i’m getting very paranoid. I can relate anything to everything and make it seemed like some mafia conspiracy or at least my imaginary conspiracy. I need to get a life soon…. ps: I’ll be home for Christmas! I’m celebrating Christmas with Justin and how pathetic is that? …but but i’ll be home that weekend ‘cept for the eve which i will be in KL with Justin. erhem… pps: in case u r wondering, Justin is the HK singer u slimy wart. ppps: the above post has been written in a very emotional mode. as many entries before has been. i think i’m going through some sort of mid-life crisis ‘cept mebbe mine should be called adult-hood crisis. =p
